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Can't believe it's 20 fuckin 25. Sci fi dystopia ass year. Praying it doesn't actually become one (at least, not in my neck of the woods). But we're gonna put that aside and focus on more positive stuff. So here we go...
[SHIT I DID]
First off, I have been getting a LOT more mileage out of my AO3 account. If you've been paying attention, I only posted 6 in 2023. However, I was able to post 14 in 2024. That's double what I posted in 2023, AND not even counting some drabbles I posted for ppl in Dreamwidth and neglected to crosspost to AO3. A lot of this was because I joined a lot of exchanges, prompt memes, and other challenges. Which is GREAT for keeping my creative juices flowing. However, it does take away a decent amount of bandwidth for stuff I wanna write for myself. But I'll elaborate more on that in another section.
Next, I've gotten a little better at expressing and asserting myself around the house and beyond. Years of getting bullied for my interests and pressured into being the good little overachiever have kinda limited my ability to put myself out there, but I've been working at slowly making a dent at that mindset. Although part of it was due to the out-loud confirmation from Mom that I can do whatever the fuck I want (within reason) now that I'm a grownass adult, and I could have done that all along but never did because my "has to get verbal confirmation that I didn't fuck up" brain didn't pick up on it. So now I'm gonna keep branching out in what I reveal to my family. I mean, a few days ago I watched almost an entire Mouthwashing LP on the big screen in the living room while my mom was there and she didn't comment on it, so I'll count that as a win.
I also started gaming more~~ Enough that I've started to get a backlog going. It's pretty small, but big enough that I should probably put off DL'ing new games while I clear out what I've got. Played this neat little combination visual novel and coding edutainment game called seekL after being rec'd by a servermate. It was surprisingly both emotional and hilarious. Next, I started a dating sim/otome called Tri City Monsters because one of the promo posts was blazed onto my Tumblr. I only got through one of the routes so far, but I enjoyed it enough to try the others. And maaaaayyyyyybe officially get my monsterfucker cherry popped in the process. Who knows? Finally, I finally played Inscryption after having a hyperfix on it 3 years ago that resurfaced in October. Way more challenging to actually play than to watch. Also P03 is still boring even when you play through his section. There. I said it. Fite me.
Finally, I did a lot more IRL events. Went to two rock/metal shows and one drag show on my own because sadly I have no IRL friends who I'd do that kind of stuff with. But either way, it was still fun.
[SHIT I WANNA DO MORE OFTEN]
First and foremost, I wanna keep writing. Especially for myself. Exchanges and prompt memes are fun and all, but I think I'll cut back on those and focus more on writing stuff I wanna write for myself. I have a Danero fic revolving around Le Highly Specific Kink(TM) that I put on the backburner that I wanna continue, so hopefully I can get that out and about. I also have a Slingo idea bouncing around my brain where they capture Sonia (and get her roboticized or otherwise killed offscreen) and Dingo gets bummed about it, but Sleet reassures him through the power of possessiveness and dubcon. Have only worked out that much so far, but my goal is to put that out in the first quarter of 2025. AND I got MGSX to take care of. So there's that.
Next, I wanna keep gaming. Now that I've found out that my garbo Macbook CAN run shit, I've built up a bit of a backlog. So my first goal is to clear that out. But also I have a few games on my to-play list. And I still haven't abandoned plans to get that SteamDeck, especially now that I upgraded my credit limit in the latter half of 2024. So I figure I can get that as a gift for myself, and use that as my primary gaming device after I clear my backlog.
I also wanna start expanding my workout schedule now that I've gotten it a bit more consistent in 2024. Specifically, I wanna devote one day for building my oblique muscles. I find that my hip/waist area is part of my body that gives me the most gender incongruence/subclinical dysphoria, so I read that building my obliques might help shape it into something less conventionally "feminine" looking. Might even throw some back/chest exercises in to get the upper part of my torso in better shape. The tough part's gonna be building up a routine and sticking to it, but hopefully I can power through. And if not I'll try to find some way to sweeten the deal.
Finally, now that I've discovered the joy of Leaving The House (TM), I wanna do that more often. Definitely wanna go to more shows, especially if the local alt promoter decides to leave their punk/core wheelhouse and pulls a band that sings about Lord Blorbicus from their books. Also wanna go deeper into my local drag scene. I figure either of those types of shows will have someone I can try to make IRL friends with. Hell, I might even travel outside my city limits for a con if there's something that catches my eye and I have time to travel. Who knows?
[SHIT I WANNA START DOING]
So I didn't end up getting the tattoo I wanted in 2024. BUT. Now that the artist I had in mind when I was first thinking about getting a tattoo is BACK in my city after moving away for a year or so, I'm gonna go with him instead of the artist I was alluding to in last year's year-in-review. And I'm definitely aiming for late March or early April. I PROMMY TO SHOW PICS ONCE I GET IT DON'T LET ME FORGET (assuming I don't forget or put it off like last time. If I do you may mock me relentlessly in my comment box.)
Also I didn't end up taking the metalworking/jewellery course I discussed last year. But I'm gonna do it this one. Especially considering I wanna start DIY'ing more accessories/clothing/etc. because the shit that fits my aesthetic is either fuckoff expensive or some cheapo Temu/Bezos garbage that'll fall apart within a couple months. And it has the side benefit of being in the vicinity of the same people at least once a week, therefore making me more likely to make friends! God, i need irl friends.
And I said I wanted to start gaming more earlier, but lbr I wanna start taking in more media in general. Reading stuff, watching stuff, etc. Past!me (and hell, even present!me) was kinda allergic to checking out new stuff (or at least new-to-me stuff) that I didn't develop a hyperfix/special interest in. But seeing a lot of online buds check out new shit kinda makes me wanna do the same, so I'm gonna try to expand my horizons. It'll have the added side effect of being more able to write for other people when it comes to exchanges and prompt memes, so yeah. That'll be gucci.
Finally, I know I should've put this in the "Shit I wanna do more often" section, but I wanted to leave this out of a cut so ppl could read it without clicking any links. This is IMPORTANT. (or maybe not in the grand scheme of things, but oh well.) I wanna start posting on DW more often. I mean, I post fairly often on Blorbo.social (which y'all should totes follow me on if you're on the Fediverse), but this is better for more long winded diatribes. Or maybe even shorter diatribes. Idk. But either way I wanna post more updates about my life, back up more fics, maybe do some community posts if I find anything worth sharing. So expect me here more often? I dunno. Only time will tell. Anyway, happy new yonks, and peace out~~~
[SHIT I DID]
First off, I have been getting a LOT more mileage out of my AO3 account. If you've been paying attention, I only posted 6 in 2023. However, I was able to post 14 in 2024. That's double what I posted in 2023, AND not even counting some drabbles I posted for ppl in Dreamwidth and neglected to crosspost to AO3. A lot of this was because I joined a lot of exchanges, prompt memes, and other challenges. Which is GREAT for keeping my creative juices flowing. However, it does take away a decent amount of bandwidth for stuff I wanna write for myself. But I'll elaborate more on that in another section.
Next, I've gotten a little better at expressing and asserting myself around the house and beyond. Years of getting bullied for my interests and pressured into being the good little overachiever have kinda limited my ability to put myself out there, but I've been working at slowly making a dent at that mindset. Although part of it was due to the out-loud confirmation from Mom that I can do whatever the fuck I want (within reason) now that I'm a grownass adult, and I could have done that all along but never did because my "has to get verbal confirmation that I didn't fuck up" brain didn't pick up on it. So now I'm gonna keep branching out in what I reveal to my family. I mean, a few days ago I watched almost an entire Mouthwashing LP on the big screen in the living room while my mom was there and she didn't comment on it, so I'll count that as a win.
I also started gaming more~~ Enough that I've started to get a backlog going. It's pretty small, but big enough that I should probably put off DL'ing new games while I clear out what I've got. Played this neat little combination visual novel and coding edutainment game called seekL after being rec'd by a servermate. It was surprisingly both emotional and hilarious. Next, I started a dating sim/otome called Tri City Monsters because one of the promo posts was blazed onto my Tumblr. I only got through one of the routes so far, but I enjoyed it enough to try the others. And maaaaayyyyyybe officially get my monsterfucker cherry popped in the process. Who knows? Finally, I finally played Inscryption after having a hyperfix on it 3 years ago that resurfaced in October. Way more challenging to actually play than to watch. Also P03 is still boring even when you play through his section. There. I said it. Fite me.
Finally, I did a lot more IRL events. Went to two rock/metal shows and one drag show on my own because sadly I have no IRL friends who I'd do that kind of stuff with. But either way, it was still fun.
[SHIT I WANNA DO MORE OFTEN]
First and foremost, I wanna keep writing. Especially for myself. Exchanges and prompt memes are fun and all, but I think I'll cut back on those and focus more on writing stuff I wanna write for myself. I have a Danero fic revolving around Le Highly Specific Kink(TM) that I put on the backburner that I wanna continue, so hopefully I can get that out and about. I also have a Slingo idea bouncing around my brain where they capture Sonia (and get her roboticized or otherwise killed offscreen) and Dingo gets bummed about it, but Sleet reassures him through the power of possessiveness and dubcon. Have only worked out that much so far, but my goal is to put that out in the first quarter of 2025. AND I got MGSX to take care of. So there's that.
Next, I wanna keep gaming. Now that I've found out that my garbo Macbook CAN run shit, I've built up a bit of a backlog. So my first goal is to clear that out. But also I have a few games on my to-play list. And I still haven't abandoned plans to get that SteamDeck, especially now that I upgraded my credit limit in the latter half of 2024. So I figure I can get that as a gift for myself, and use that as my primary gaming device after I clear my backlog.
I also wanna start expanding my workout schedule now that I've gotten it a bit more consistent in 2024. Specifically, I wanna devote one day for building my oblique muscles. I find that my hip/waist area is part of my body that gives me the most gender incongruence/subclinical dysphoria, so I read that building my obliques might help shape it into something less conventionally "feminine" looking. Might even throw some back/chest exercises in to get the upper part of my torso in better shape. The tough part's gonna be building up a routine and sticking to it, but hopefully I can power through. And if not I'll try to find some way to sweeten the deal.
Finally, now that I've discovered the joy of Leaving The House (TM), I wanna do that more often. Definitely wanna go to more shows, especially if the local alt promoter decides to leave their punk/core wheelhouse and pulls a band that sings about Lord Blorbicus from their books. Also wanna go deeper into my local drag scene. I figure either of those types of shows will have someone I can try to make IRL friends with. Hell, I might even travel outside my city limits for a con if there's something that catches my eye and I have time to travel. Who knows?
[SHIT I WANNA START DOING]
So I didn't end up getting the tattoo I wanted in 2024. BUT. Now that the artist I had in mind when I was first thinking about getting a tattoo is BACK in my city after moving away for a year or so, I'm gonna go with him instead of the artist I was alluding to in last year's year-in-review. And I'm definitely aiming for late March or early April. I PROMMY TO SHOW PICS ONCE I GET IT DON'T LET ME FORGET (assuming I don't forget or put it off like last time. If I do you may mock me relentlessly in my comment box.)
Also I didn't end up taking the metalworking/jewellery course I discussed last year. But I'm gonna do it this one. Especially considering I wanna start DIY'ing more accessories/clothing/etc. because the shit that fits my aesthetic is either fuckoff expensive or some cheapo Temu/Bezos garbage that'll fall apart within a couple months. And it has the side benefit of being in the vicinity of the same people at least once a week, therefore making me more likely to make friends! God, i need irl friends.
And I said I wanted to start gaming more earlier, but lbr I wanna start taking in more media in general. Reading stuff, watching stuff, etc. Past!me (and hell, even present!me) was kinda allergic to checking out new stuff (or at least new-to-me stuff) that I didn't develop a hyperfix/special interest in. But seeing a lot of online buds check out new shit kinda makes me wanna do the same, so I'm gonna try to expand my horizons. It'll have the added side effect of being more able to write for other people when it comes to exchanges and prompt memes, so yeah. That'll be gucci.
Finally, I know I should've put this in the "Shit I wanna do more often" section, but I wanted to leave this out of a cut so ppl could read it without clicking any links. This is IMPORTANT. (or maybe not in the grand scheme of things, but oh well.) I wanna start posting on DW more often. I mean, I post fairly often on Blorbo.social (which y'all should totes follow me on if you're on the Fediverse), but this is better for more long winded diatribes. Or maybe even shorter diatribes. Idk. But either way I wanna post more updates about my life, back up more fics, maybe do some community posts if I find anything worth sharing. So expect me here more often? I dunno. Only time will tell. Anyway, happy new yonks, and peace out~~~
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